I discovered yoga at the age of 17 during a high school summer theatre program. As a lover of dance, my body responded well to the physical practice. I was naturally flexible and embraced any kind of strengthening challenge, as I was a teenaged girl suffering from the "thin-is-in" epidemic.
I continued vigorous Vinyasa flow classes throughout my twenties, combined with high impact cardio and strength training work. But I found no matter how hard I pushed myself, there was a gnawing hum of dissatisfaction that I just couldn't silence. Perhaps it was the pressure for "perfection" as an actress, but the sad reality was that most of my female friends exploring all kinds of career paths were experiencing the same struggle with their own bodies.
In 2009 I moved from NYC to LA for a year, where I discovered two of the biggest components of yoga I had never even scratched the surface of--the spiritual and meditative aspects. Talk about divine timing! I was coming off the heels of a huge heartbreak, the economy had just crashed so my commercials stopped running, and I went from having the secure comfort of my parents and dear friends in NY, to knowing about five people in LA.
Thank God for the angels I was blessed to live with who pointed this train wreck in the right direction! I began taking Kundalini yoga and discovered Vinyasa flow classes that incorporated meditation and spiritual components.
This type A, high-strung, stubborn Irish New Yorker was a deer in headlights, choosing “stillness” and “quiet” as tools to deal with the stress and pain. I was extremely resistant to slowing my racing mind and body down, instead of my natural habit of desperately trying to fix and control what I now see in hindsight, was perfectly broken.
Beautiful shifts in different aspects of my life began to occur as I stayed committed to the practice. I broadened my perspective to what MY part was in how I got to this dissatisfactory place, versus playing the despairing victim role of “why is this all happening TO me?" I stopped obsessing over what I perceived as flaws in my body, and started loving and caring for it in more nurturing ways. I naturally gravitated towards healthier foods, and found myself being that much more kind to who I saw in the mirror.
My deeper developed love for yoga led me to get certified to teach back in NYC in 2010 at YogaWorks. It has been an amazing journey, sharing the monumental tools yoga has to offer, as an effective healing method for the mind and body.
But don’t get me wrong--I still sweat the small stuff and freak out over little or what I perceive to be “not so little” things! That gnawing hum still creeps up just when I think I've mastered the ability to drown it out. However, the ability to catch myself and understand what the small thing is really about in the bigger picture, is what brings me back to the mat every time.
I’m so thrilled to return to LA where I was initially inspired to teach, and look forward to our yogic paths crossing!
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